Friday, February 27, 2009

RAIN!

I noticed the clouds rolling in on my way back from the market. "Rain would be nice ..." I thought as I wiped the sweat dripping from my face with my shirt sleeve. But I wasn't going to get my hopes up. It had been months now since we'd had any substantial rain in my village. I can think of 2 times when a rare drizzle had passed through, but - aside from those exceptions - I'd grown used to waking up everyday expecting nothing else but the usual weather forecast: sunny and hot.

Harmattan season was nice. It started in November and was marked by cool mornings and evenings (which the Togolese hated but I loved). Sometimes it would get so cool at night that I'd even need to sleep with a sheet. And some mornings the chill would linger long enough that my regular morning bucket bath (which was usually refreshing) would get me shivering and I'd have to throw on a sweatshirt and sweatpants until the water on the charcoal finished boiling and I could warm up with some hot bouillie. The rain stopped falling and the air became very dry, which was a nice break from the oppressive humidity. It was a glorious change of weather.

The one downside was the dust. Harmattan winds blew in dust from the Sahara, but days on end of a baking sun transformed our own soil too; the ground, which used to get packed down by rain every couple days, now became heated and dry and easily churned up when you walked on it. The slightest breeze would whip up a cloud of dust that would then inevitably find its way into your house and settle on your bedsheets and books and couches and floor. I couldn't go more than 2 days without sweeping and dusting my whole house - although even that didn't do much because sweeping would often just stir a lot of the dust up into the air before it'd settle right back where it started in just a couple of minutes. The roads turned into piles of pure sand, making biking very difficult, and contributing to more motorcycle accidents than I'd care to witness in a lifetime. Helmet-less moto drivers would wear nose and mouth masks and sunglasses to keep the dust from getting into their eyes, teeth, and lungs. But nothing could be done to keep the dust from settling on your skin - something that I think annoyed me more than the Togolese, mostly because it was much more noticeable on my white skin (it's always the most horrifying when sweat drips down and carves a trail in it, leaving streaks all over).

Harmattan seems to have ended now though, and the Togolese are starting to brace themselves for what they call the "real heat" that's supposedly coming in March and April. "You think this is bad ..." is the phrase that has to come to characterize the start of the warnings they offer me when they catch me fanning myself in the shade. The humidity has noticeably risen again, though rain (in its regularity) is still weeks away. I'm mostly wondering how in the world I'm going to sleep during this supposedly imminent, deathly heat wave considering how, even now, I'll wake up and stay awake for hours in bed, dripping with sweat, fanning myself with the same straw fan I use to fan my charcoal, praying for even the smallest breeze to blow through my window and break up the stale, 100 degree air that weighs down me in my poorly ventilated room. Even the mice in my ceiling seem to have grown lethargic with the heat, making much less noise these days than they used to. I'll lay there in bed, fantasizing, Bigger/more windows ... electricity and a fan ... just one rainshower to cool things down ...

Be careful what you wish for.

By dinnertime, lightning was lighting up the clouds in the distance, eventually becoming so frequent that it was like a strobe light, illuminating the sky every 2 seconds. And still I doubted. Heat lightning, I thought.

It was only after I got into bed that the wind started up, and then suddenly I heard it - the pitter patter of rain on the tin roof. I couldn't help but smile as I felt the temperature drop. I'll finally sleep comfortably tonight, I thought as I grabbed my sheet and rolled onto my side. A couple minutes passed and the rain and wind picked up, so much that raindrops were now traveling far enough through the screen on my window to touch my toes. I wondered for a second if I should shut the windows, but I dismissed the idea, thinking that the rain probably wouldn't last. And besides - I'd been meaning to mop anyways.

And then all of a sudden it was really coming down - or sideways really. The sound of the rain on the tin roof became deafening. I turned over in my bed and my feet landed with a squish on the foot of my mattress, which I realized, as I sat up with a start, had become sopping wet from the sideways rain. Annoyed, I grabbed my flashlight and turned it on, quickly realizing that my wet bed was the least of my worries considering a small lake of dirt (I hadn't swept for a while) had formed on the floor under my window and was creeping towards the center of my room.

"Oh, Great," I said out loud as I jumped out of bed (splash) and ran to check on the other room, where an even bigger dirt lake was waiting for me. My couch cushions were soaked and my coffee table books were dripping wet. It gets worse: that wall that faces the back of the house is made of mere clay with just a thin layer of plaster on the inside - meaning, it's not very waterproof. So water had actually soaked through the wall and was staining it in wet stripes. Under the window, the rain had puddled on the sill and was now streaming down the wall, dragging dirt with it. So much for my beautiful paint job, I groaned in my head (once dirt gets on these walls, you can't get it off unless you take the paint off with it).

I had to close the windows. To close them from the inside meant I had to take out all the little pieces of sponge that I'd stuffed in the cracks between the screen and the frame to keep lizards/mice/bugs from coming in - which was a huge hassle. But I did it, although the job first required putting my rainjacket on backwards to protect me from the now hail-like rain that was shooting through the window, and sloshing through the inch of rainwater that had collected on my floor. Before I could then open my screen, I had to slam my hand against the screen multiple times to force off the dozen lizards that were clinging to the other side (the screen opens inward, you see, and the last thing I wanted was for all those lizards to fall onto my floor and scurry around my house - wouldn't that be the icing on the cake?). Finally I was able to reach outside and pull the wooden shutters shut. I was absolutely soaked, my house was a disaster, and I was going to have to give up my morning plans to now mop up my inundated floor. I found myself suddenly laughing though; I had completely forgotten that this is what rain in Togo is like!

Tropical climate, anyone?


Saturday, February 7, 2009

January Pictures and a reality update

As of January 21, I am now into my "teens" in terms of months of service left in Togo (down from 27 months to 19). I'm not counting down the days until I get out of here or anything, but it was just something that I realized. Sometimes when I think about it, I'm amazed that I've already finished 8 months, and then other days, I think "I still have so long to go!". Whenever I think of the time I have left in terms of work though, I always get anxious in feeling that it's not enough time to accomplish everything I want to get done. I guess that's the reality of development work: everything just goes so slowly.

In that vein, I have very dramatic ups and downs/highs and lows. I was re-reading some of my past blog entries and was thinking how they make me seem like I'm happy ALL the time - which isn't quite the case. That's not meant to be interpreted as: I wish I wasn't living here. I just mean to say that the reality is, behavior change comes about very slowly (if at all), and in the meantime, the kinds of issues I encounter in my work can sometimes be very difficult to deal with.

A couple examples:
-HIGH: I got really excited this one day when the mother of one of my neighboring families approached me about getting herself and her 15 year-old daughter on some method of birth control. I had been trying to talk to them both for a while about it because the Mom has 6 kids and is still fertile and could very easily get pregnant again, but doesn't want to, and yet isn't using protection. And the daughter had run away with a local boy at the beginning of the month to who-knows-where before finally coming back, and was now obviously sexually active, and the mom was terrified that she was going to get pregnant. After first discussing the options with the two of them and what the process would likely entail, I agreed to first accompany the daughter to the dispensaire as moral support.
LOW: It turned out that the girl already had an STD. Worse: after asking her questions about when the symptoms began, we found out that she'd contracted it in 2005 - which means she was 12. But there are no health classes here (even if there were, she'd dropped out of school anyways) so she didn't realize it was something abnormal, and moms don't talk to their daughters about these kinds of things (usually because they themselves don't even know!), and kids don't have physicals, etc. etc... So she just plain didn't realize. The second part of that morning thus involved me going back and sitting down with her mom and talking with them about the consequences of this and what her responsibilities are now to prevent her from spreading this to others (although the likelihood is that her current boyfriend is probably already infected), while in the back of my mind, I couldn't help from doubting that she was actually going to follow my advice. That incident alone depressed me for the remainder of the week.

-HIGH: Not long after arriving permanently at post, I met the director of the CEG (middle school) who was incredibly friendly and flexible and supportive of all of my projects. His support helped me get a lot of my initial projects underway.
LOW: A couple weeks ago, while meeting with him over work, he made completely inappropriate comments, suggestions, and gestures that proved himself to be just like the other men I know here who disrespect women. I had thought he was different but he wasn't. I was disappointed to the point of tears over that one.

-HIGH: In response to their complete ignorance/lack of knowledge about their bodies and puberty, etc., I started using my girls club sessions to talk about things like why girls get periods, how (biologically) a girl gets pregnant, what type of birth control exists and how they work, etc. I was really encouraged by the girls' reactions because they were completely enthralled and participated with a bunch of questions that they had never had the chance to ask before. They just plain didn't know! Some older girls (some of whom already had children) even later approached me about helping get them on birth control methods, now that they knew they existed.
LOW: When they realized that they had to consult with the midwife in the dispensaire rather then with me about what method to go on, their response was "Oh...Never mind". The problem (I realized)? The midwife has such a bad attitude and temper that girls do not want to approach her about getting put on a birth control method because she'll just YELL at them for being sexually active so young. And YES - being sexually active is obviously not the ideal life choice for these girls at their age, but - realistically - her yelling at them is not going to make them stop, and what instead happens is she scares them to the extent that they AVOID the dispensaire, and then they don't use ANYTHING, and then they get pregnant. This is a problem I am still trying to resolve.

There are also just a lot of other things I encounter all the time that are hard to deal with, including incredibly malnourished babies (the worst cases are the ones where the mothers don't seem to care), induced abortions (once a girl came in to the dispensaire with an infection that came about because she had tried to abort her pregnancy by sticking a bicycle wheel spoke up her vagina to burst the umbilical sac; I've also known girls who have died from trying to induce abortions by drinking homemade herbal mixes), EARLY pregnancies (once a tiny 13 year old girl came in to the dispensaire with her mom because she'd been throwing up and thought she had the flu; it turned out she was pregnant), and serious wounds (a woman once came in after having been attacked by her husband with a machete and had deep cuts all over her head and shoulders).

It's heavy stuff. And I'm so grateful for the experience and the chance to do what I can to help with the things that I can, but sometimes it can be really overwhelming! Thank you to those who serve as the people I vent to when I need to - I don't know how I'd make it otherwise! I am also grateful that my work here does involve as many highs as lows because it helps me to keep going.


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NEW PICTURES!
Lizards cooling off on my window screen at night (this happens every night). Notice the blue foam stuffed around the sides of the window frame: I did this so that the lizards would stop coming INTO my house that way.

Making enriched bouille with girls from my girls club on the porch in my compound.

Some girls from my girls club selling enriched bouille at the market and showing off their new shirts (the club name is "Filles en Action" (Girls in Action) )

Danielle came back from her vacation in the States! Fabiola came and visited and we celebrated.

Danielle and I doing an Enriched Bouille sensibilization in a neighboring village





Baby-weighing at the dispensaire. The women weigh the babies on the scale on the left, and I record the weights along with demographic information in the babies' health books and in the dispensaire's record books.

Danielle and a HEALTHY baby at my baby-weighing

Me and the Pharmacist in the pharmacy at my dispensaire

Teaching my environmental class about the moringa tree

Starbucks Togo-Style; Emily and our home-made coffee cake

Emily and her new puppy, Fenway

In-Service Training; I hadn't seen a lot of these people from stage since swear-in!